Hi,

Why I'm Starting  A Xanga:

1. To collect my thoughts, it's hard to know what all you are thinking.

2. To stay focused.

3. To let others know what my focus is.

I'm not in much of a typing mood right now. So here's an interesting conversation between myself and a man named Cody Blevins (gibsonlespaul06), he keeps it real no doubt. I can respect that. All in all pretty interesting conversation I thought. The end is good.

Auto Response from v o n Jw 1 (6:12:20 PM): The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today
is Christians who acknowledge Jesus with their lips and
then walk out the door and deny him by their lifestyle.
That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable.
I'm as guilty as anyone, it's time to change that. (Again)

Is this one for the people?
Is this one for the Lord?
Or do I simply serenade for things I must afford?
You can jumble them together, my conflict still remains.
Holiness is calling, in the midst of courting fame.

Cause I see the trust in their eyes.
Though the sky is falling.
They need your love in their lives.
Compromise is calling.

Father please forgive me for I can not compose
The fear that lives within me,
Or the rate at which it grows.
If struggle has a purpose
On the narrow road you've carved,
Why do I dread my trespasses will leave a deadly scar?

Do they see the fear in my eyes?
Are they so revealing?
This time I cannot disguise
All the doubt I'm feeling.

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and i make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

gibsonlespaul06 (6:13:05 PM): see i dont think they deny him by their lifestyles so much

v o n Jw 1 (6:13:23 PM): oh what do you think?

v o n Jw 1 (6:13:34 PM): honestly what i think is that people expect to much of everyone

v o n Jw 1 (6:13:37 PM): including themselves

gibsonlespaul06 (6:13:52 PM): well they kinda do deny him by their actions

gibsonlespaul06 (6:13:55 PM): not so much lifestyle

v o n Jw 1 (6:13:58 PM): then they like let down their own you know like standard

v o n Jw 1 (6:14:05 PM): yeahh

gibsonlespaul06 (6:14:10 PM): like drugs

v o n Jw 1 (6:14:13 PM): totally

v o n Jw 1 (6:14:14 PM): drugs

gibsonlespaul06 (6:14:16 PM): e.g.

v o n Jw 1 (6:14:17 PM): alcohol

gibsonlespaul06 (6:14:27 PM): i dont think that these are barriers with god and jesus

gibsonlespaul06 (6:14:28 PM): i just dont

v o n Jw 1 (6:14:32 PM): my problem is girls really but not even that much

v o n Jw 1 (6:14:34 PM): i cuss some

v o n Jw 1 (6:14:40 PM): god knows ive got some lustful thoughts haha

v o n Jw 1 (6:14:47 PM): but no partying or drugs or anything for me

gibsonlespaul06 (6:14:55 PM): but god doesnt want you to be fake

gibsonlespaul06 (6:15:02 PM): he wants you to be a real person

v o n Jw 1 (6:15:09 PM): oh totally

gibsonlespaul06 (6:15:10 PM): and if drugs and alcohol are your bag

gibsonlespaul06 (6:15:13 PM): then

gibsonlespaul06 (6:15:15 PM): thats it

gibsonlespaul06 (6:15:31 PM): as long as they dont interfere with the presence of the spirit in the temple

v o n Jw 1 (6:15:36 PM): i disagreee but i mean i dotn want to give you my opinion  unless your interested

gibsonlespaul06 (6:15:46 PM): opinion away my brother

v o n Jw 1 (6:15:52 PM): its all petty stuff really

v o n Jw 1 (6:15:57 PM): just love jesus man

v o n Jw 1 (6:16:02 PM): forget religion just love jesus

gibsonlespaul06 (6:16:19 PM): i think jesus would have more pitty on the wretched soul than the apathetic soul

v o n Jw 1 (6:16:21 PM): christianity the word means little christ

v o n Jw 1 (6:16:37 PM): all we are supposed to do is depict jesus to the best of our ability

v o n Jw 1 (6:16:44 PM): dont judge dont boast dont whatever

v o n Jw 1 (6:16:46 PM): just do your thing

v o n Jw 1 (6:17:06 PM): but i mean drugs and alcohol

v o n Jw 1 (6:17:09 PM): they may be your bag

gibsonlespaul06 (6:17:16 PM): well not really my bag

gibsonlespaul06 (6:17:18 PM): but i do them

v o n Jw 1 (6:17:24 PM): but theyre not you

gibsonlespaul06 (6:17:31 PM): exactly

gibsonlespaul06 (6:17:36 PM): as long as they dont control you

v o n Jw 1 (6:17:43 PM): like and thats whats up

v o n Jw 1 (6:17:52 PM): when youa sked jesus into your life to be lord of it

v o n Jw 1 (6:18:02 PM): then what happpened was he took that old man

v o n Jw 1 (6:18:04 PM): the isnful man

v o n Jw 1 (6:18:09 PM): the one with the sinful nature

v o n Jw 1 (6:18:17 PM): and cruccified it on the crosss

v o n Jw 1 (6:18:24 PM): and created a new man inside of you

v o n Jw 1 (6:18:41 PM): now when you do sin, get drunk drugs whatever

v o n Jw 1 (6:18:44 PM): its part fo that old man

v o n Jw 1 (6:18:46 PM): but tis not you

gibsonlespaul06 (6:18:47 PM): but for this whole george bush douche bag born again thing

gibsonlespaul06 (6:19:31 PM): i think these people should admit they are wrong and live with their past and no regrets

v o n Jw 1 (6:19:41 PM): oh dude

v o n Jw 1 (6:19:47 PM): im one of those popel ill be honest haha

v o n Jw 1 (6:19:53 PM): were not saying were forgetting our past at all

v o n Jw 1 (6:20:02 PM): all were saying i am pretty sure is exactl whay i just said

gibsonlespaul06 (6:20:02 PM): im just saying dont say you are born again

gibsonlespaul06 (6:20:06 PM): is just the faith has been there

v o n Jw 1 (6:20:10 PM): our old sinful nature of this world

gibsonlespaul06 (6:20:12 PM): its just been weathered at times

v o n Jw 1 (6:20:25 PM): was crcified on the corss when we asked christ to be our lord and savior and reign in our life

v o n Jw 1 (6:21:08 PM): and then he kind of leads us lives inside of us now watches out for us whatever because we acknowledge what he has done for us

v o n Jw 1 (6:21:19 PM): man i dont know enough yet to argue or anything voer that

v o n Jw 1 (6:21:26 PM): although i know jesus wouldnt argue over it

v o n Jw 1 (6:21:35 PM): hed just love everybody and do his own thing

v o n Jw 1 (6:21:45 PM): thats what ima do just love everyone and try to learn as much as i can

v o n Jw 1 (6:21:51 PM): and grow in the lord

gibsonlespaul06 (6:22:03 PM): i can dig man

v o n Jw 1 (6:22:08 PM): yeahh

v o n Jw 1 (6:22:26 PM): but do you not hate it how people expect "christians" to be perfect

v o n Jw 1 (6:22:28 PM): were not perfect

v o n Jw 1 (6:22:33 PM): were forgiven there is a difference

v o n Jw 1 (6:22:43 PM): the only thing is it shouldnt be part of your lifestyle

v o n Jw 1 (6:23:00 PM): like you shouldnt sin relying on the forgiveness later, thats taking advantage of the cross

v o n Jw 1 (6:23:08 PM): so i do my best to not sin

gibsonlespaul06 (6:23:16 PM): its just that people dont admit sin

gibsonlespaul06 (6:23:19 PM): thats the thing

gibsonlespaul06 (6:23:22 PM): they take it for granted

v o n Jw 1 (6:23:50 PM): your rightt

v o n Jw 1 (6:23:58 PM): and thos epople are the hypocritical ones

v o n Jw 1 (6:24:06 PM): you know

v o n Jw 1 (6:24:20 PM): 2 timothy or whatever talks about not being perfect but at least putting up a fight

v o n Jw 1 (6:24:30 PM): thats all im doing is fighting for what i believe is right you know

v o n Jw 1 (6:24:40 PM): i might not be perfect but im going to be better than what i would be if i didnt try